Hati ni terasa kosong
Mungkin hati aku sudah tiada di sini
Aku mahu cepat2 habis dan mulakan hidup baru.
Aku tidak tahu mahu beri alasan apa
Aku tidak berminat.
Aku hanya nak siapkan kerja “at my own pace”
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So , it’s going to be June soon.
after three months struggling with
mac: reading journals to understand everything (for introduction part). It’s not that I haven’t read journals before in order to understand the concept of my research but that time it was more like grabbing every points and mechanism of my research, i need details , not peak on the surface.
april : got fed up with reading, so it was my time to analyzed my results. Yes, this is not a good attitude but because I am stuck with works that had nothing to do with my thesis so I cannot really analyzed properly ( i mean with statistic and proper calculations. I have never use statistic before. This is my first time. This is actually a very good lesson for me so that one day I should do it properly)
may : only three experiment left for me to analyze, my brain cannot accept anymore maths equations and many pictures slides of my experiment results. So i decided to write introduction part. Alhamdulillah, I have completed this part, almost 40 pages of introduction. However, I haven’t prepared my literature review yet. So i guess, separate introduction with literature review cause it’s going to be too much if I put them together in one chapter. I part of literature review almost 15 pages cause I added all the chemical structures and for the other derivative is going to be more than 15 pages.
june : I am going to start writing my result parts. Hopefully I will complete them this month. I am going to the lab 3 times a week just to get away from some people.
Hopefully june is for results, july is for ramadan, celebration, terawikh prayers, and discussion chapter, august preparing papers for submission.
notice of submission probably in september.
Hopefully I can submit them in December, then find a job, take a break, think , save some money, then …
tschuss!
” Study the things that you love and like,
so that no matter how much obstacles that you may face during your journey
it won’t break you down ” -for my little brother.
Rejection!
I am afraid of rejections especially
when I want it so much and the time is limited.
As Annie Being Human said, ” BRRRrrrrILLIANT!
- vid ini berjaya menyimpulkan segala luahan/rasa hati ni!! -
Thank you Allah.
Thank you for not making today as gloomy as they were couple of days ago.
Thank you for letting me meet my beautiful friend who graduated last Saturday and her family accidently today.
Thank you for letting me meet my friend who graduated last Saturday, near math school.
Thank you for letting me see my friend who is going to go to work at a book store, she didn’t realize me .
Thank you for letting me know that there’s one person in my lab that understand why I seriously didn’t bother to go to the lab for the cleaning spree but I did drag myself to the bus stop.
Thank you for letting me meet my friend from chemistry school who is missing me so dearly , and she already planned to post that she misses me on FB.
Thank you for today, Thank you for brighten up my day.
Thank you, there’s a new aquarium in the postgraduate room in the “other” school.
Thank you.
don’t think too much about them.
don’t think about the past,
what past is past, just move on.
don’t hope or trust anyone
cause in the end your heart get broken.
just think about your thesis
pray.
be positive!
face all the obstacles.
face all the obstacles.
face all the obstacles.
face all the obstacles.
don’t be stress out cause of them.
live life.
life is too short.
reward yourself.
reward yourself.
be the old you where you don’t hope on anyone.
be selfish.
be selfish
be selfish
be selfish
be selfish
get out everyday!
see the world.
get out,
get out
get out
eat ice cream
reward yourself
be close to those who appreciate you.
the truth is,
things are going to get harder than now.
am I ready for it?
the truth is,
saya sudah tidak mahu berada di sini lagi. saya tidak ada semangat bila berada di kalangan mereka.
saya mahu pergi jauh-jauh dari sini, mungkin saya perlukan cuti yang panjang.
mungkin sebab banyak kenangan sedih di sini buat saya penat.
saya sangat penat sehingga hendak ke sana pun saya rasa begitu berat.
maafkan saya.
April is almost over,
Today is the 45th Convocation in my Uni. Congrats to all my dear friends.
Sorry I couldn’t make it.
Since early march, I just focused on analyzing my data.
Still left 3 more experiments and I cannot analyzed anymore. I want to puke already looking at all the data and pictures.
So starting from today onwards, I will start writing my result and discussion part until the end of May.
So that in between, i can still manage to analyzed and write the result and discussion part the final 3 experiments.
InsyaAllah, May Allah helps me.
Amin
